Monday, April 25, 2011

Love and Hate

So you can understand more of where this is going to go I need to set it up. My job requires me to work nights and is an essential part of the business that I am in , therefore my sub is left home at night. So we have been enjoying this new  way of having sex so much we have been doing it everyday for 2 weeks and I think I over used my dick  and I woke up sore today we talked about taking a night or 2 off to recoup.

Now to the Love part:
  Tonight while i was a work I got a text from my sub asking my permission to get herself off while I was at work. I granted her permission since she was a good girl and asked to do this instead of trying to get away with doing this behind my back. I am so proud of her for knowing what to do for only doing this  D/s  relationship for 2 weeks.  I also loved telling her she was a good girl after letting me know she had finished.  

Now to the Hate part:
  I hated the fact that I couldn't be there to watch her play with herself, help her get off, and make her get off by the things I do.  I was at work going insane knowing that she was at home in bed and playing with that pussy of hers that I love and I was so far away and there was nothing I could do about it.  I hate it that she got off and when I go home i can't take my dick and stick it in her mouth, pussy, and / or ass that I have grown so accustomed to the last 2 weeks.  Most of all I hate that I won't be able to control her and make her get the Dominant sex that she craves and I know she needs from me.


Sunday, April 24, 2011

Just Starting Off

I am new to this, I love sex and can't ever seem to get enough. My sub has just gotten me into this about 2 weeks ago. I love it!  I love having the control and doing what I feel. Mostly I love making her get off on everything I do to her.
My Sub is very dominant outside the bedroom but loves for me to take control and put her in her place when in the bedroom.
This is something that very few people in my life would believe that this is something that I could do and would probably be shocked I could be this way. I have always been shy and mostly self conscious about what people would say, and what my sub would say or that the way I do it is  stupid. The real thing is that I didn't want to fail her, I know she wanted me to be dominant but I always felt that I couldn't get that side out of me and it would turn our sex into a big disappointing night if not even a fight and then nothing at all.
 Lately I just said fuck it, we are going to do this and I am just going to have to suck it up and make it happen for her. I have been looking at sites, reading blogs, and discussing with my sub what really turns each other on and going threw the rules of this D/s relationship that we are going to be taking on.
In the past 2 weeks we have gone shopping and gotten her outfits, a collar, and some misc stuff. I have learned so much about her and gotten to see a side of her that she has be urning for me to bring out and satisfy. I already new she likes me to be aggressive, pull her hair, talk dirty, and smack her on the ass. I just found out she loves having me to tell her what to do, how to get dressed for the evening, have rough sex, spanking more than just a slap( all out),and  thank her for being a Good Girl.
My Sub has always been able to get very wet and all these Dominant things I do to her, have her pussy the wettest I have ever seen it. We recently figured out after 14yrs of marriage how to get her to achieve an orgasm during intercourse. and it has been sex everyday since then or just about.
I love doing this to her and enjoy doing this everyday. I get so much into this and  enjoy the pleasure that i give to her sometimes I almost forget about me and seem to take for ever to get off, but when I do it is so explosive, and some of the best I have ever had.
I want to thank my sub for bringing this side of me out and I love you so much for it. I will keep up this blog on how my Dom experience is shaping and how this side of me that i was dormant for so long  and i was afraid to bring out , is now out and is alive.  Thank you for reading and hope to post more soon.